I'M NOT CRAZY!!!

Sorry I haven't written...but I didn't pay my bill cuz they didn't credit my account for all the days that I COULDN'T git online so I refuse to pay for a service that I didn't git!  So they cancelled my account!  Plus I'm movin soon and I'm goin with another provider so SCREW EM!!!  I'll just use Kittys puter! TEEHEE!!  So how have all my FANS been doin?  I'm doin pretty good I guess!  I'm tryin to git this REALLY big house to rent.  But I'm waitin to hear back from the owners to see if they'll rent it to me or not!  It's startin to PISS ME OFF!!!  Maybe I'll try for this OTHER house if I don't hear back from them by today!  Well ALOT has happened since I last blogged!  I went to my counseling session then I went to see that psychiatrist that she referred me to!  THAT doctor told me to stop takin diet pills and the depression would go away!  It HAS gone away for the most part!  Paul and I don't really TALK anymore.  We're not FIGHTIN...we just don't TALK!  THAT makes me SAD!!  He don't even come in anymore.  But whatever.  I'm done anyway.  I smelled booze on his breath last time we went to counseling.  So he has NO intention if he EVER did of doin what HE has to do to make it work!  My self esteem is WAY better than it has been in YEARS and I deserve better than someone who's gonna drink and CHEAT on me every chance he gits! So go be with yer BOTTLE and be HAPPY!  He said he was feelin better about HIMSELF as well...says that he was startin to feel like the "Old Paul" again, well if that's someone who has to go to the bar EVERYDAY after work...then I don't want the "OLD PAUL" back anyway!   I'm just happy enough to know that I'm not crazy enough to be on antidepressants!!!  BAahahahahaha!!!!  But I was WILLIN to be on them if it was gonna help me!  My FRIENDS have done a WORLD of good for me too!!!  I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!  Kitty came home Friday and showed up at Trickys!  I jumped up and down!  I MISSED her!!!! Tha bitch is all tan and shit!!!!  I BURN....PEEL....then I'm STUCK with all these dang FRECKLES!!!  But once the freckles grow together...then I git that mighty fine tan...it's just a little splotchy!  LOL!!!  Well....I'm at Kittys right now and I'm havin some MAJOR writters block!  That's gonna be the one bad thing about comin over HERE to blog cuz I'm too distracted...even if noone's around me!  My writin comes to me late at night usually.  And I've been goin to bed at like 9pm and wakin up sometimes at 5 and 6am!!!!  THAT'S the WEIRDEST!!!  I just kinda sit there and think....what do ya do at this time in the mornin???!!!  LOL!!!  The BIRDS sound REALLY nice that early!  A couple of times I've just gone out on the back porch and sit and listen!  It's SO peaceful!  The kids all sleep til at least 9 so I've got 3 hours of this quiet time!  It's kinda nice actually!  When I stay up all night the birds are sleepin too!  I like THIS sleep schedule better!  Okay I gotta go..we gotta go feed the kiddies!!!  I've got runnin to the store dutie!  Take care...I'll blog more when I can!  WISH ME LUCK ON GITTIN THIS HUGE HOUSE!!!  If I git it....we're havin a barbque!!!! 

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

Comments

[Cheryl]

You sound like your doing pretty good!
Of course you deserve better that anyone who has to go to the bar and drink everyday. You deserve the best!
See you on the 4th!

[Rachie]

I glade you have such a good friend in Kitty!

[Rachie]

OK WAIT!!!! That other comment makes me sound pissed and thats not the case! I am really glade that you have found such a good friend in Kitty who can help you through this time in your life! I know that when I was alone in Nebraska it was the hardest and darkest time of my life and I was all alone! So it helps me to know that your not in that same situation and that you can turn to Kitty! I hate that Im so far away and not able to help out like I wish I could!!! Just know that your in my thoughts each and everyday and I love you so very much! Take care my dear friend and Kitty keep up the good work you are a wonderful friend and everyone is lucky to have someone like you to count on!

[Laurie Ann]

Hey Ang...sounds like you're doing pretty good to me...venting in a healthy way, realizing you need help, and discovering through all the crap thrown at ya, you are stronger than you ever realized you were.

I'm proud of you girl!!

Smooches,
Laurie Ann

[Rachie]

Happy 4th of July !!! Have a great time today and be safe! I love you !